Unfortunately, it also had many pages of things dealing with my relationship at the time... And I also found pictures from our trip. Not the best thing to find on a day when I'm already a little out of sorts. (Having Thanksgiving Dinner on Sunday instead of tonight didn't help much, either. Gramma's was tonight and it was... not the same?)
Things just aren't quite right, and I wish I could place my finger on it.... at times it seems like the past four years have just been a dream... and not an overly pleasant one. The person I am today is not the person I set out to be... not the person I feel in my heart... I know far worse fates, but it tears me up that I know how to be a much better person, and when it comes down to it, I just... am not him. Or is that not me?